The Kenyan Seer

 This season, I have learned that life is not meant to  be linear. The path is not meant to be straight nor are all your plans meant to work. If you are obsessed with being in control, then it's time to let go. I feel I have experienced the extremes of a lot of things: fear, confidence, loss, confusion, clarity, love; in short, there were days when I had it all together and days when I saw everything crumble down. In the season where it seems things are crumbling down, that's called restructuring , so just breathe! It is in your plans being contradicted, that you gain lessons. I am learning to take it slow.   As i do anything I lean in the moment and take from it as much as I can. Be present. Why are you rushing? I've had the bad habit of doing everything in a hurry ,so today I learned that there's no other time that I'll experience these moments. I'll never be 19 years 4 months old again might as well savor the momentos. I learned the fear is just in my head. ...

 And so He said to me child it doesn't matter what he tells you Though now you serve me confusedly I know you will find clarity In Me there's no condemnation This love casts out fear  And so don't wait till you are white  enough on your own Don't bother with the detergent and bleaches  A matter spiritual is fixed spiritually Deep calls for deep I want you just the way you are It doesn't matter how deep the pit is, is my hand too short to get you out? So my arms open wide, I am running after the father At the door as I knock, I'm glad you are opening This is a banquet I prepare  Anointing thy head with oil Though you feel undeserving a love I offer is unconditional Poem inspired by the book of Jonah❤️

How happy it is to be a son at the father's lap I am envious of the Prodigal son  He was bold to come as filthy as he was and did what I dread the most To come just the way I am I know the directions home too  But today the orthodox ways don't make sense to me I am so guilt ridden, ashamed and I reek of pungent blood that is on my hands I don't know if I should read the Word  Recite the Creed or confess to the priest Funny because you know that guy who killed her parent's trust....I was among the ones who wanted her sentenced to doom And truth be told, she was guilty as charged. Lost her purity got pregnant with sin I went through her case, listened to what the witnesses had to say She was guilty Father So my words wove the rope they almost used to hang her Today, I regret my actions I am the one at the gullows Only thy Grace can save me I killed many  I ripped out someone's heart yesterday I made love to the things  that are out to devour my soul I'm scared,...

I am that one person who unwillingly will overhear people's conversations and recall almost everything. I remember this time last week a lady and a guy were seated across me and my friend. I could tell it was their first date. I overhead the guy's Spotify wrapped for this year. He was a handsome Chinese dude btw! He mentioned that he had a meeting at church that evening too! I was happy for that girl, he seemed like a nice man that I'd date too. Don't ask me how I knew it was their first date  but there's a demeanor about the first thing of things. Your laugh, smile There's a way you approach things cautiously. Not for everybody though.  Talking about firsts. I know the end of things is better than even the beginning but I also realized that I held the memories of my firsts as endearly as the lasts. I remember all details as vividly even more than the last. Let's get back to what I was saying. Firsts. Recall your first day at school primary or college, first...