Life lately...

-

 September is here, it's raining, it's chilly and I don't know about you but I have quite a bad flu so I'm writing this with a running nose.

I feel so much has happened in the past few months. I am currently sitting on some chair staring at my laptop, the whirring sound of a box fan is what is keeping me company and the voices in my head, I keep on throwing glances at my phone but remember that those I frequently chat with, are in deep sleep far far away. Everyday, I look at my gallery and I swear I really miss my best friend Brigid. Every picture I have carries so many memories.


This month of September I have re-learnt to give myself grace. I came across this short statement, " Approach tasks with a beginner's mindset. Don't worry about being perfect or having all the answers, just be open to learning." 

I've been beating myself up for not being as fast as everyone else when it came to adopting to life here, or making friends and etc. Again, I've gone back to the drawing board and I am taking a day at a time. I am learning to count my blessings one by one and just reflect on what the Lord has done.

I can't lie I have made so many mistakes, embarrassed myself innumerable times but I don't tie the mistakes to me, they don't define who I am. I am above those mistakes. Someone caught me mouthing affirmations in the bathroom the other day, I burst into class late disrupting it and as I settled down I realized I was in the wrong room so I had to rush out again, struggled with all the swiping, pronounced things in the funniest of ways but I have just laughed it off. 

 In all these weird moments, they have been beautiful memories that I have made. It just depends with how you choose to look at things sometimes.

Some of the most beautiful things I heard this month...

Take that mentality to the cemetery. You have been given the opportunity, a silver platter. You have to do what it takes. Not only the best. This was quite a fierce statement but carrying a lot of truth and redirection.  So I'm passing this to whoever feels they are not up to task with anything that they are doing. 

I am constantly praying for you😙 fr fr. There's no better statement than this and some people are standing and doing it because of you whispered a prayer for them. Shoot a prayer to the ones you care about or just whoever your heart prompts you to pray for, it goes a long way..

Mi sioni haja ya kuchicken out. Face everything you need to, head on! 

You'll manage God's strength is sufficient.

...your departure made you desirable.. This one, I leave you to interpret.

Swim don't dive..Don't rush into anything because it seems to plausible at that time..evaluate, discern then make at least well informed decisions

Carry one statement with you! 

My friends are quite wise!  I am a sucker for good words they are refreshing to my soul.


                                                        Keep blooming!!!

                        Proverbs 16:24 

                        Kind words are like honey- sweet to the soul and healthy for the body.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

You’ve been brave before; you only need enough courage for today - Nneka

-
Image
This post has been inspired by Nneka Julia from Substack. Her work is incredibly amazing, and the level of skill she pours into each of her posts is worth admiring. You’ve been brave before; you only need courage for today. I saw the thumbnail of this post first thing on Thursday morning last week. That day, I had a class presentation and also a call, and I was super nervous about both, especially the latter. Funny enough, it’s not like it was my first time doing either of those things. I’ve done them before, even when the stakes were higher. It’s strange how courage doesn’t carry over. You’d think once you’ve done something brave, you’d be set for life. It’s like every day, I have to muster up the courage all over again just to do the things I’ve already done. Lately, I’ve been deliberately putting myself in those uncomfortable situations, like having to engage in conversations with people I don’t know, trying to sound calm and collected while my nerves are doing jumping jacks. And y...
Read more

I like beautiful men...

-
Image
  On the morning of my birthday, I wanted to start it with God, so I got up early and was ready for church. But the city’s train wasn’t working, and I had to take two buses to church. I hate to admit this, but I am directionally challenged. Reading Google Maps is a hustle for me. This caught up with me even on this day; it seems some things never change, even with age. I got on the right first bus, but for the second one,  wrong bus. Still wanting to go to the service, I saw I could take a train, but yep, I still paid and entered through the wrong subway door. Don’t ask me how this happens. Anything and everything is possible when it comes to me and directions. I was angry at myself.  How can you just not read simple things?  So I walked out of that dark alley leading to the subway, onto the streets, and sat on a bench sulking.  No church for me today, I resolved. What was the point when I was already so late and livid? I said,  I’m gonna do what I’ve been ...
Read more

Do you really want to be a mother?

-
I think it is a jarring moment where we realize that our mothers are distinct human beings on their own. They are not just our mothers whose lives revolve around taking care of us. They have dreams and desires of their own. As they make flaws in life, choices, they are experiencing life for the first time, just like us. I have always been close to my mother. A tight closeness, that did begin when I was aware of the world. She's shared her heart with me most times and through that, I have always seen her as a friend. So, after form four, I can remember how much I tagged along everywhere she went. I skipped church youth meetings to walk home with her and listen to the same stories/gossip she told me but forgot she did. (pro-tip: just listen as if it is the first time)  My mum is strong and I appreciate her level of patience because I am stubborn-headed,  sulky  and I cry every day at the slightest inconvenience. Going shopping with my mum meant, refusing every thing that sh...
Read more